Thanks tan_william, why I want to vent my anger and pain in
sgforum was that I really need to shout and after I shouted it out
and the encouragement I received, I felt relieved. Believe it or
not, I thought f proposing to her last december, too fast and too
harsh for me to take this pain.
One motivating factor that kept me moving on was that her family
called me during my reservist and apologised for what she has done.
Talk abt friendster, when she decided to break up with me, she
changed her status from attached to single, I ask her why, she told
me its normal and I stupidly believe her. Why I am able to stand up
on my feet was that her family ( I dun want to specify who, she may
be reading, I dun want any family quarrel) told me that I did
nothing wrong, its her who wants to leave me. They encourage me to
move on, they told me I am not fated to be with her. Painful but I
felt relieve, they told me that I did not do anything wrong.
If she can know and accept a guy so easily from the net, I would
have dump her when she met with so much problems. I am not that
sort of guy and I will never will.
I must admit that Iwas really very poor back then, really no money
to treat her for goodmeal or enjoyment. She was a good girl back
then, very understanding, gave me all the encouragement and
motivation, We tried evry means to save money, or rather she saves
alot of money for me. Even till our relationship ended, I did not
spent much on her, but she dumped me cos I got no time for her,
cant chat for long wth her. I can only speak through actions.
I remembered one day when I knocked off from work, so tired, I went
to her house straight with my bermudas, t-shirt and slippers, help
her wash car, so romantic right, after washing, I went back home
which is abt 12am. There are many things besides this which I have
done for her. Dun hurt me until like this when she plans to dump
me.
